It is so easy to love God. He is non-judgmental. He is creative, interesting, witty, humorous and kind. He gives his spirit freely, so you are energised, changed and empowered to obey him. You need to stop striving. Just stop. You need to surrender so he can work through you and in you. You need to stop preempting him with your fears and suppositions. When he wants you to do something, he will not only tell you; he will have prepared all that you need to execute. Jesus stands at the door, knocking. He would like to introduce you to his Dad.